12/23/2009

OMG!!

Does people really knows about this???
Wow! I am amazed! seriously :)

Tomorrow is my last working day this year, then Christmas, packing my stuff and yupii!!! to New York for whole week, including New Year's Eve!!!!
Everything is just so great, amazing and wonderful!

Goodnight my friends,
xoxo
Heidi

12/21/2009

year 2009/blogging

This has been very busy year, especially past 6 months.
And I do realize that during beginning of 2009 I was blogging almost every day or several times per day. But now I have been too busy and/or too lazy. But that doesn't mean that I don't have my own opinion about things and people around me. I do and way much more than ever.
So my promise for next year: STOP BEING TOO BUSY AND TRY TO FIND TIME FOR EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS.

Ugly sweater party and jail (!)

Lets start with fun part: Ha ha, it was something! Seriously! Since, when I came to USA, I barely could close my luggage, i didn't took anything ugly but those ugly sweaters I saw yesterday were hilarious! I guess I have to buy one as well because these kind of parties are kind a common in here and I don't want to pop out with normal clothes in that kind of party :D ha ha!
And shocking part: Today I found out that maybe one of my friends has possibility for going into jail. And I'm just feeling so shocked about it. Thank God, when I found out that, I was sitting not standing. It is just too shocking because he is so awesome and great person. Even tho he has had problems with law. I will cross my fingers and hope for the best.

12/18/2009

Music for soul.

Many songs in our lives associates with some memories and every time when you hear the exact song you go back your memory lane. And sometimes when you love the song, you can't listen to it anymore because it is just too heart breaking. But for one song, past 7 or 8 years, it feels such a relief when you realize that your the most favorite song ever has no memories that could ruin beauty of it.

12/17/2009

insomnia.

Last 2 weeks I have real insomnia and it starts to feel very disturbing. I mean, very very.
It's 2 in the morning and I have to wake up in 4 hours. I'm tired as hell but those stupid thoughts still run through my mind. Almost 24/7.
If I could just have "off" button somewhere on my neck. Even "pause" or "stop" would be very useful. Shhh...!

12/16/2009

Silent treatment.


As I said long time ago.. silent treatment has always worked.
Who said that adults are much different than kids? When you ignore then, they will come to you.
I knew it, maybe I wasn't sure that in this case it will work but it did. And I can say "I said so" ;)

Sailgojos.

Man uznāca baigā melanholija pēc Latvijas Mākslas akadēmijas ikgadējā gadatirgus "Jarmarka". Atceros kā pagājušogad ar plati atplestu muti skatījos uz visiem tiem lieliskajiem mākslas darbiem. Bet gan jau aiziešu uz kādu no gadatirgiem še pat :)

12/13/2009

past = present ?

When you let your past come inside your present, draw the line between both of them or you will suffer more than you did when the past was your present.

12/09/2009

Grow up!

Pēc ilgas sarunas, ir atgūts sirdsmiers.
Un, kāda gan citam daļa gar manu dzīvi? Es savu dzīvi dzīvošu kā ES vēlos, ja nepatīk, tad bojā pats savējo. Jo es esmu apmierināta ar tiem lēmumiem, kurus es pieņemu.
Tāpēc, gribētos cerēt, ka cilvēki reiz iemācīsies dzīvot paši savu dzīvi, ne kāda cita!

12/04/2009

Līdz sirds dziļumiem.

Ziemassvētku koncerts.
Glīši saposušies bērni. Kur nu kurais pirms lielās uzstāšanās. Viens pie mammas. Viens piekārto kaklasaiti, kas tomēr 10 gadus vecam bērnam izskatās neizsakāmi mīļi. Kāda mazā princese piekārto kleitu. Kāds mēģina stresaini pēdējos vārdus iemācīties. Kāds vienkārši klusē blakus mammai. Katru no šīm 260 mazajām dvēselītēm, nodarbināja kas cits. Tomēr visiem kopīgs - uztraukums. Patiešām aizkustinošs un skaists koncerts. Ja agrāk brīnījos par to kāpēc mamma raudāja katru reizi manā koncertā, kad uzstājos, tad šoreiz pati, skatoties uz Maiju līdz sirds dziļumiem biju aizkustināta. Es lepojos.

P.S. Šis tomēr ir pārdomu laiks. Un nav nozīmes cik grāmatas to slavinātu. Tā tas ir. Īpaši tad, ja esi tālu prom no saviem vismīļākajiem. Padomā par saviem mīļajiem un pasaki viņiem, cik īpaši un nozīmīgi viņi ir Tavā dzīvē!


Happy Holidays to everyone,
Heidi

12/01/2009

Pasēpes no sevis paša.

Pēdējos mēnešos sakrājies tik daudz. Tomēr ir bail to visu skaļi teikt/rakstīt, pat domāt. Dažbrīd rodas sajūta, ka, ja klusēšu, tā nekļūs par īstenību. Tad tas būs tikai mans domu un fantāziju lidojums.
Šodien nolēmu, ka tam ir jāpieliek punkts. Tāds liels un trekns. Pirmā lapaspuse manai grāmatai ir uzrakstīta. Un pat tad, ja šis, manis ilgi lolotais darbs, nekad neredzēs dienasgaismu, tas tāpat būs vairāk kā klusēšana.